Epitaph_87

We'd sit
He'd smile

We'd talk
He'd laugh

We'd walk
He'd sing

We'd part
I'd cry!

.....


We'd meet again
He's silent

He'd walk alone
He's wrapped in smoke

We'd part
He's sad

and I'm mad!

Just the same day..last year!

I was met with watery eyes of one of my colleagues...!

she murmured...stood speechless...

and my heart beating hard!!

she said "She is Gone!!!.......(SHE) is Gone"!

OH DEAR!!

we were just talking to each other...a week ago...

she mentioned shopping...club...food..clothes,,,Life!

her laughter...

was she laughing at me then..and that she'd leave me?!

I felt her innocent spirit still flying round us...!

I opened a book she gave me...!

Her name was there..on it's yellow pages!

Yellow as her pale face..when she left our world!

I folded the book..with a tear running through the maze of its pages!

I phoned her....she didn't reply...but I was answered by tears...!

so it's true then!

I still pass by your house!

Look up at her window!

you do not wait for me there!

weird!

where could you have gone?!

did you go shopping alone..without my company?! didn't we agree we'd go together?!

Hmm..I tried this new restaurant you recommended...you always had a fine taste...

But..

But I could not hide my tears...from the waiter..I asked him for two places..and was far away...woke up at his voice..."are you waiting for someone, ma'am?"...

"Oh No! Just one then!"...I truly replied

Just one!!

One!

I thought a year was enough for my recovery...to understand this is how this life works!

hmm..seems not enough to teach me a lesson of its brutality then!

Just yesterday,,,another Rose of 20 years old..faded!

a Rose....we used to sit side by side in french classes!

I still remember our girl's talk on cosmetics...and the new glittering red lipstick you've bought...!

but it melted now!..it melts as everything else melts...life melts..memory ,,, all..they all melt in the cruelty of this world!

is it a coicidence to know of your death on "our" french exam? the thing that always gathered us..and was our topic of complaints?!

how ironic!

I was surprised at your change this year!!

You appeared calmer...enjoying some peace in your short life!

did you know it was short?!

were you riped early?! before your time?!

God Forbid!!

we'll miss you..your friends already miss you!!

as for me...! I will take some time to contemplate...to recover ...to heal my wounds!!

I will miss both of you!!

Probably ..I did not have the chance to say how much I love you...But I hope you do sense it!


I already miss our talk
our chat
our gossip
classes
bus rides
games
laughter
cries
tears
....
...
..
.

Here..I take refuge..and will write my epitaph!!!

Tomorrow, and Tomorrow, and tomorrow
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day
To the last syllable of recorded time
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death.Out Out brief Candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more : it is a tale
Told by an idiot , full of sound and fury
Signifying Nothing!!!!!!!!!!

salam alikom wa rahmatu Allahi wa barkatu

My beloved Egypt....forgive me!

Forgive my foolishness,,,forgive my passiveness,,

Forgive my mistakes,, forgive my deeds!

Forgive any harm I caused you..or I will cause you!

But No! I won't Ever cause you any harm , my beloved!

we'd heal your wounds! we won't leave you bleeding!

Your tears washed our hearts! woke us up from our long sleep!

Those who stabbed you are not forgiven..you'll be avenged my dear!

و قلنا اننا يوما
سننسج من ظلال الحزن أحلاما
تعزّينا
اذا تاهت مدينتنا
و جفّ النهر بين ضلوع وادينا
و عاد الخوف بالأحزان يقهرنا
و يسرق عمرنا منّا
و بالأوهام يسقينا

Yesterday...the Egyptians were called a Muslim and a Christian....Today, after this Catastrophe of Sinai, they would prove they are first and last Egyptians, hand in hand, will show the world the Egyptian United Soul!


The very same soul of 1919, of the Cross and the Crescent...the same soul of the Muslims defending Jesus and the Christians defending Muhammed(PBUH)...the same soul of Mina fighting in the same regiment with Mustafa and hand in hand they hoisted the Egyptian flag...

It is the same soul of the Muslim with his Christian partner...and their store has a painting of Jesus , beside a verse from Qur'an!

The same soul of Terez studying with Aya... and of Marzooq holding the hand of the Blind Muslim, Ahmed leading his way to the Mosque~

The same people who celebrate Hajj and Christmas together!

The same country where in one portray you'd see the Mosque with a church in the background!

The same sounds of Azan and Church bells!

سأظل أذكر أن في عينيك قافلتي

و عاصفتي

و ايماني العميق


Now...Egypt is bleeding..who is to her rescue?!

She doesn't want a Christian or a Muslim..she needs a true Egyptian!

An Egyptian who'd help his brother without asking about his religion!

An Egyptian who really cares to see this country in a better state!

An Egyptian who'll hoist the flag proudly , with the national anthem inscribed on his heart!

An Egyptian that would reveal the Conspiracy theory....and save Egypt from being stabbed again by traitors!

The echoes of " قوم يا مصري" rather than "اختارناك" should be storming throughout the country!

Unblind yourself...hold the sand of this land ... hug the earth that have brought you up.. fed you, educated you.,...healed your wounds!

When would you wake up?!

when would you run to the rescue of your beloved?

نسأل الأحزان حلما

نسأل التعذيب صبرا

نسأل الخوف الأمان

نخلع الأثواب...نسترضي الزمان

نلعق الأحزان من قدم الزمان

من تري فينا الجبان؟

نحن.. أم هذا الزمان؟



My Love, My Egypt,,,I drank from your Nile,.,,I wandered on el Korneish, visited your Pyramids, built sand castles on your beautiful beaches in Alexandria, .... I clapped my hands with joy when I saw your son Zweil holds his Noble Prize...and Naguib Mahfouz's books are worldwide read...I shed tears of happiness when your Dr. Magdi Ya'qoub achieved great acclamation !

Will I be ungrateful now when I see you in distress?! will I shout and complain when I see you under the hold of those who does not know your true value?! will I complain of the pollution I caused you? and won't drink from your water because I am who contaminated the Nile? will I leave you behind me now , with disgust, when I see those feeding over your sick body?!Will I leave you a victim to a rotten system?

NO...I won't be that Brutus who last stabbed Caesar! I won't join this conspiracy with my passiveness!

I am with you, my beloved! with all my heart, with all my words, with all my talents,, with all my principles and values you've taught me!

I am with you..in agony and Joy,,,in distress and relieve....woe and weal!!!!

My heart with you , My Egypt! :)

يوما غنيتك يا وطني

و شدوتك أجمل ألحاني

و جعلت زهورك مئذنتي

و جعلت ترابك ...ايماني

في سجنك عمري أنقاض

يجمعها ثوب الانسان

و غدوت سجينا يا و طني

و كفرت بكل الأوطان

( The selected lines are from Farouq Gweida's Poems (لأني أحبك) )