Epitaph_87

Just the same day..last year!

I was met with watery eyes of one of my colleagues...!

she murmured...stood speechless...

and my heart beating hard!!

she said "She is Gone!!!.......(SHE) is Gone"!

OH DEAR!!

we were just talking to each other...a week ago...

she mentioned shopping...club...food..clothes,,,Life!

her laughter...

was she laughing at me then..and that she'd leave me?!

I felt her innocent spirit still flying round us...!

I opened a book she gave me...!

Her name was there..on it's yellow pages!

Yellow as her pale face..when she left our world!

I folded the book..with a tear running through the maze of its pages!

I phoned her....she didn't reply...but I was answered by tears...!

so it's true then!

I still pass by your house!

Look up at her window!

you do not wait for me there!

weird!

where could you have gone?!

did you go shopping alone..without my company?! didn't we agree we'd go together?!

Hmm..I tried this new restaurant you recommended...you always had a fine taste...

But..

But I could not hide my tears...from the waiter..I asked him for two places..and was far away...woke up at his voice..."are you waiting for someone, ma'am?"...

"Oh No! Just one then!"...I truly replied

Just one!!

One!

I thought a year was enough for my recovery...to understand this is how this life works!

hmm..seems not enough to teach me a lesson of its brutality then!

Just yesterday,,,another Rose of 20 years old..faded!

a Rose....we used to sit side by side in french classes!

I still remember our girl's talk on cosmetics...and the new glittering red lipstick you've bought...!

but it melted now!..it melts as everything else melts...life melts..memory ,,, all..they all melt in the cruelty of this world!

is it a coicidence to know of your death on "our" french exam? the thing that always gathered us..and was our topic of complaints?!

how ironic!

I was surprised at your change this year!!

You appeared calmer...enjoying some peace in your short life!

did you know it was short?!

were you riped early?! before your time?!

God Forbid!!

we'll miss you..your friends already miss you!!

as for me...! I will take some time to contemplate...to recover ...to heal my wounds!!

I will miss both of you!!

Probably ..I did not have the chance to say how much I love you...But I hope you do sense it!


I already miss our talk
our chat
our gossip
classes
bus rides
games
laughter
cries
tears
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Here..I take refuge..and will write my epitaph!!!